I find myself once again lost in the life I have. It has been a long time since I have felt like this. I am wandering through a beautiful green forest looking for a way to a road that will take me into my destiny. At one time I was a survovor in life and nothing stood in my way. I am so alone right now it seems in this forest. I am seeking guidance, direction and a way out of the forest. I walk and walk and the road still eludes me, but I keep going knowing that one day I will come out to the road.
This road will take me to this land that is so gorgeous , it has everything I have wished for. My careeer is there my whole life is ment to be there. I have sunshine and beauty there. I am finding myself as I am on the way to that road. I am seeing my weekenesses and my strengths. I am finding out what truly hurts me the most and what is so lovely and enjoying to me.
I am in struggle right now facing the things going on in my life . It is a struggle almost everyday to make myself see the next level to this story of mine. I see these things in a distance, I am not there yet. Finding love inside me and courage to let it out is starting to happen. Letting the sorrows of all of the struggle are beginning to fall beside of me as I go. The tears keep coming in all of this and I seek out the inner inspiration inside of me that God has given me to keep going on in this. I am seeking to build my life back up and to become what my dream is and to be all of the lovingness inside of me to share with many people.
This search for all of this is frustrating, but it will come evne as I feel trapped in this forest I am still finding the beauty in it. May I find my road and may I follow it an never give up the hope inside of me. May I see this dream and keep it in my mind sight and struggle and push harder to obtain it. Learning new things about life and myslef each day I go. These struggles make me stronger for the new things in this forest I face each day. Better to be looking out and examing as you do this learning what you need to learn on the way as a new tool to use in another day.
